"What is Love &WHAT IF"

�What is Love & WHAT IF�

Love what is love? Is love saying that you are seriously attracted to to a person? What if he
is not attracted to in the way you are to him?�WHAT IF� constanly going through your
head what if you are wasting your time and your heart and your kisses? Then when you are
with him all your cares seem to melt away and you find yourself slipping in to a delirium where
you can not get out till the one you love is gone. Then it as if you are brought back into sharp reality the what if�s come back or the was this to much or should I back off some or a lot should I tell him I�m in love with him? Especially when he sayes that is saying a lot. May be I�m crazy and stupid and insane to think that some one could love me as much as I say that I love him. When people are together for only 3 weeks then maybe it is to much. Especially when we have so much against us because of age and what if he does not still love me in a year, or a month. Maybe it is my own insecurity fighting me making me miserable. Does this mean that I am not ready for a relationship? But I want a relationship with him!! I want it to work out between us. Dose this prove my inmaturity? That I�m not ready for this? I need answers and soon. I do not want him and me both to get our hearts tangled up then cut apart.
I do love him, he is every thing I want, he completes me, makes me whole. I have my own beliefs of how we should date and what is to far. I belive that he respects my wishes but hey, he is a guy and I doubt that in the moment of truth he would want to stop. But I completely trust him, am I loco or what? I�m afraid of myself, what if I go to far one time then the next time when he expects it tell him no then he gets confused. I hate when people confuse me but I think that I confuse him. Which I am worried that it may be a big turn off to him. He likes to take things as they come. What does that mean?? When he first asked me out I said that I wasn�t ready for lip kissing and he said that he was ok with it then well to put it plainly we have made out at least 3 times, 1 weeks after I said I�m not ready for lip kissing. One thing leads to another bit by bit first it was kissing on the cheek, then it was kissing on the lips, then kissing a little longer and not stoping, now we use our tongues. You might be saying EEEWWW!!!!! But I like it but how does he feel? I really can�t figure out if he is ok or what? I�m supposed to be a lady and be modest etc. but he said once that he does not care if I be a lady or not. I need answers should I ask him if I�m going to far. I do not want to turn him off by me doing something wrong. He is very competitive and likes to win I�m very stuborn and like my own way. But I really see us together for a long time. I WANT IT TO WORK!!!!!!